Afflicting A Terrible Mental Toil:

A Case Study on The Psychic Toll Transgenderism Exacts On Us All (With an Exclusive Update)

Author’s note, this article was originally published on Counter Currents, available here. This version of the essay includes an addendum, revealing the truth about the images concerned.

On August 15, 2024, the twitter account “Garbage Human” tweeted out this image, featuring two images, ostensibly of the same person, one before “transitioning” and after.  It remains unclear if this is the case.  This author ran a number of reverse image searches, both of the image and the before and after images in isolation.  Nothing has come up so far, certainly nothing that traces the pictures to the original poster or posters, or the identity of the individual or individuals involved. Most of the comments express incredulity that this could be the same person. 

The disturbing before and “after” image tweeted out by “Garbage Human.” Whether the two images are the same person is a matter of some controversy.

And yet a close examination of the two images reveals the nose structure is very similar, as are the eyes. It is impossible to compare the chin of the man in the before image with the Rastafarian beard. Moreover, the person in the after image has shaved eyebrows, and the image features what could be strategically deceptive clothing and angles, replete with cropping the image to hide the shoulders and chest. In addition, one facial comparison application yielded this result captioned below, remarkable given the beard, Rastafarian dreadlocks and so on in the before image. Opinions on the matter in private correspondence with yours truly have ranged wildly as well, with some expressing conviction that these are not the same people, with others, a minority so far, insisting that this is absolutely the same person, citing similar if not identical nose and eyes, as well as how makeup, surgeries, botox injections can change appearance. That view of course discounts the possibility that the woman is a close relative, perhaps a sister.

In this one distressing example, everything this author has asserted about the transgender menace is exemplified. This image proves that everyone is affected by this. To behold this image entails the likelihood it will stay with anyone who looks at it for quite a while. Squinting, trying to decipher what remnant tells of manhood could be in the “after” image is tantamount to the very mental anguish and psychic toil described in other essays.  As stated in “What Consenting Adults Do Is Our Concern,”

Even rare instances of transgenders who pass reasonably well have an uncanniness about their appearance that forces the mind to scrutinize the conflicting signals received, a most unwanted mental toil that transgenderism forces on us all.  Quite often they have succeeded in obliterating many but not all signs or tells of their actual sex, while displaying counterfeit, artificial signals that are nothing less than an act of deception, as they seek to deceive those they interact with into thinking that that person is not the gender they were born as, but the one they pretend to be. For all but the absolutely most deceptive, this creates a sort of cognitive dissonance, as the brain struggles to process what is displayed with those nagging “tells” that signify male—for example unusually narrow hips, large hands, or an Adam’s apple for a man presenting as a woman. 

As stated, the charade ends in any more intimate setting, whether a bathroom, locker room, or god forbid someone contemplate having relations with such a creature so as not be a transphobe or bigot:

And even for the rare transgender who reasonably passes as a woman at first glance, the lying and delusion ends in spectacular fashion for anyone stupid or gullible enough to believe that so-called transgender “women” are women when they see—or worse yet experience in other ways--what is between the legs: either a penis and testicles or the assorted horrors of the so-called neo-vagina.

The mental strain inflicted on the individual and society goes beyond this deciphering process.  If the after image is really the same person in the before image, such a person is presenting as such in public, ostensibly as a single person looking for romance or sexual relations. One infers from that either the unlikely scenario that some individuals in our midst might be interested in that, a distressing consideration enough, or that the individual depicted seeks to deceive straight men or bisexual or lesbian women into having a romantic or sexual interest in that person.  That is tantamount to constructive rape, if not sexual assault per se.  Those readers who are single may be on a dating website or platform will likely be reminded of such images, and will be affected either consciously or subconsciously as they appraise prospects on these applications. These and other such images will linger in their mind. Those who are happily married or taken, while not being more directly affected by the chance that a prospect on Tinder or match could invoke this sort of sexual fraud, still nonetheless feel empathy for those who do have to contend with these new dangers in society. Empathy of course is something leftist pigs like to ramble on about, even though they are very poor at actually exhibiting empathy for others in practice.  Either way, the mere promulgation of this image is to perpetrate sexual fraud on the viewer, or else a sort of torment, as the mind struggles to reconcile what appears to be a rather attractive white woman (despite the mouth piercings) with the grubby Rastafarian white person in the before image. To see this image and think the after image is a violation on the mind and eyes, as the image suggest it is actually a person, regardless of whether what is purported turns out to be true or false.

If the after image is indeed the same individual person as before, it must be conceded this person has nice facial features and could have been a rather handsome fellow, if he had not made himself ugly with the dreadlocks and Rastafarian garb that one can practically smell through a computer screen, to say nothing of “trooning” out more recently.  That draws on one’s empathy as well, not just for him but any family this person has or did have. If he is straight, it is a tragedy such a person chooses to destroy himself in such a way he can never have a normal life, never marry, or have kids.  That white people are falling prey to this and any myriad of anti-natalist vices are the very reason why the Sons and Daughters of Europe are in the midst of a demographic winter and racial suicide, of which there is precious little time to counteract and reverse. If he is gay, it is a shame a person cannot accept himself, particularly if restraints on society compelled homosexuals to behave as Christopher Hewett and Noel Coward did, i.e. being relatively discrete about what they are and not rubbing everyone’s nose in it.

At some point society must ask why we should tolerate any of this. Why are mainstream conservatives so tepid in their response, limiting their opposition as it pertains to women’s spaces or preying on children and minors?  Why, out of fear of being called a “bigot” or “transphobe,” do they not enunciate a more enlightened position of uncompromising tolerance, correctly arguing that the insane delusion that people can change sex or gender harms those who entertain such abject insanity as well as society as a whole?

At the very least, this one single incident discredits the blithe assertion that we should not care, that is wrong for the sane amongst to care, that no one is affected by any of this and that it is no one’s concern but those who “choose” to indulge in such fantastical delusion.  We are affected by this, all of this, everyone who has seen that tweet or read this article is affected by this harrowing imagery, and what it implies about the individuals involved as well society as a whole. The response must be, yes, we do care, this does affect us. We have to look at this, live among this.  But, should the necessary means to impose our will become available, the time of such permissiveness that has allowed such mad delusion to be a part of the cultural milieu that envelops us all is coming to an end.

Addendum: The Truth About These Images Revealed (Written September 12, 2024)

I have an update concerning this matter. Before revealing the update, I will stress that in all instances I have been aware of or participated in, there was significant controversy as to whether the “before” and “after” images actually depicted the same person. Many were not just incredulous, but were convinced it was a fraud.  A personal contact even indicated to me if he were not single, that the woman in question is definitely his type.  Some, insisting that the images were false, were angry about the effect such a prank could have on the young woman featured. Others argued it was the same person, noting similarities in the nose and eyes in particular.

With that preamble out of the way, I can reveal that the images are authentic. Someone presented me the individual’s tiktok in a tweet reply. This was in response to a tweet I posted in the “troontopia” community on twitter that was several weeks old. The evidence is conclusive, as I was able to ascertain the individual’s Instagram, youtube, and other accounts, as well as learn both his birth name and the name he goes by to serve his mad delusions; that information will not be disclosed for a variety of reasons.  Some screenshots from this individual’s social media accounts are posted below, to demonstrate the truth about the original images posted in the earlier essay. First, it is noteworthy that the “after” image was cropped.

Zooming out, the robust shoulders and arms are a dead giveaway.  Various pictures on his Instagram and other social media are truly jarring in terms of how his masculine features disrupt the façade he attempts to construct. Other images, taken on their own, would fool most if featured on a dating profile, and they would probably draw a lot of interest from single men and even dishonorable married men. These will not be posted in the interest of brevity as well as to not feed the individual’s delusions and vanity. There is also an interest in sparing readers the “psychic toll” I have described both in the case study essay this a follow-up to and other essays, as that “psychic toll” pertains to all of this unpleasantness.

These images show the individual before. These and other images of the individual before “transition” have a certain gestalt about them that could reasonably be associated with drug abuse, antifa, and other odious qualities that would preclude most from having any sympathy or kindness for this person.  But he is still one of our brethren. In fact, the person is Scottish.  I have also ascertained, with a fair degree of certainty, that he is a father, although I do not yet know the custodial or marital status.  He is an amateur musician with a youtube channel of under 1000 subscribers. I note that because there is a song with a title close to “My Father Was a Good Man” (exact title will not be provided).  The song discusses a father who died from heroin overdose, which we can safely presume to be autobiographical. In that way, we see how vices and such personal destruction like these emanate from generational trauma, which itself stems from social problems that society tolerates if not condones. In a “less free” society, his father and others would not have succumbed to such vices, because they would not have been available to him.

The individuals who get caught up in this collective hysteria are real people, people who would have made far better decisions in a sane society.

The other important lesson from this concerns the dangers associated with online dating. As stated, many were incredulous that the images were of the same person, and that is with the “before” image not just suggesting but indicating, specifically denoting in fact, that they are of the same person.  Taken in isolation, the after image and other images, which I will again refrain from posting, would fool most.  There is no elegant solution to that problem.  Even those women who are not deluded, insufferable leftists would probably be put off by any attempt to verify that she is actually a woman. “Before we get started I just want to verify you’re not one of them there troon creatures floating around” will be endearing to none.

This little escapade confirms so much of what I have contended on many different subjects. The way in which this person fits a certain gestalt, indicative of herd, group behavior, reveals that in many ways these are not personal choices in any meaningful sense, but part of a larger, cultural and sociological phenomenon.  The fact he has at least one child (I believe a son but that has yet to be confirmed) means these “choices” will harm, in very real ways, not just those close to him, but by extension Scottish and indeed British society at large. And, as I have also maintained, (most particularly in “The Psychic Toll”) all of this affects everyone of us.  The moment such images are emitted and are received by our optical nerves and in turn processed by our brains, it has a very real affect on everyone.  Finally, as readers will surely note a less formal style of prose in this short addendum, I would like to add a personal note; writing about this, being subject to this and other things, like the Haitian-killing-and-eating-cats fiasco which I have written about, have affected me personally. These things would affect me even if I were not focusing on them to write about them, but with that added focus, it has had a noticeable effect on my temperament, mood, and state of mind. So yes, in response to the “Why do you care, how does this affect you personally” bit, I do care, it does affect me, it affects all of us. The Western world is captivated by the most spectacular naïveté, stupidity even, to entertain such a “philosophy” to any degree whatsoever. The future of civilization likely depends on disabusing ourselves of such folly, and much else besides.

Additional edit, dated September 17, 2024: at least one person has expressed disbelief that the image on the right is not a woman. This screenshot, which was was revealed to me on twitter to solve the mystery, should dispel any doubt.